If you build it...they will come

I was always so apprehensive of breaking out of the christian community for fear of exiling myself from other humans seeking spirituality...seeing the beyond of what is tangible. I took a courageous step, and went out on my own. I searched deep within and decided to go with my intuition and gut in order to be true to who I really am, which has sent me on a journey of a lifetime.
Here I am...a few years later after my big depression, followed by my big step to find my own truth without the influence of society, religion, etc. Expecting to find the truth on my own...divinely led of course. I'm happy to report that I've kept in direct contact with God, and my spirit has grown tremendously. I recall the title of a book I haven't had the opportunity yet to read, "One Day My Soul Just Opened Up," and that is the perfect phrase I would like to coin for this occasion. I am in disbelief of the opportunities, the experiences and most of all the amazing people who have come into my life due to following my truth.
I have met, and surrounded myself, with several like-minded, honorable, spiritual people that I am unable to count on both hands. I had no idea what life had in store for me when I took the leap of faith and followed what was deep within. I can tell you, it's a beautiful thing far beyond what I can define in the written word.

"To Thine Own Self Be True"

The Endless Search...Finding God In Everything, but mostly in myself

Everyday, the question I pose to myself is, the purpose for existence, who God is, how to get closer to this, "God," etc. I even at times question if there is a point of all of this, if we are here by mere random chance. But, then I get back to who I am. Which takes me closer to who God is. I feel the most in touch with God when I am the most in touch with myself. What has this taught me? Simply put: God made me, and if God made me, then a part of who God is lies within me. This is one of the truths that pumps throughout my veins and grounds me in my existence. If nothing else, being who I truly am; instead of what my family, what society, what religion, what my job wants to define me as, brings me closest to my maker.
There is a point I've reached and aim to reach where I am in tune with everything...with the, "rhythm of the world," so to speak. I feel like the wind, the cars, every growing organism, everything swells up in this beautiful symphony, and I am playing my part to create the noise that IS. This is when I feel closest to my creator.

To Whom It May Concern:

I am writing this more for myself than anyone else. I've learned a lot about who I am and want to speak that truth, regardless of how much my view point may differ with those that I love. This is and has been a long journey for me that I am slowly coming out of. Depression is like a deep, dark, heavy blanket that covers your entire soul, mind and body. The ONLY way I have found any hope out of this is by being rawly honest with myself, despite everything I have believed and all of the fear I have in exploring who I REALLY am (this is a large part of the reason I chose to make this blog private, I don't want to upset people through my changed viewpoints and self-exploration that they may not agree with). If you are reading this, thank you for taking the time.

Much Love,
Andi